Welp, I am finally done with my drawing – 6 episodes of Martin later.
The nice nurse came over to check on me, my smile was so big. She actually came, didn’t think she was going to come over, but she did -I am sorry I doubted her.
I told her about my night and she said well you can come over for your group therapy session, so you can be around people your age. I was like a bet- skipping with a smile. It’s the little things I tell you.
I come into the room and say did yall miss me. Andrew, Bishop, and Zack were the only people I recognized. They changed everyone around within 24 hours that’s crazy. But I was excited to play UNO again. I think Andrew was too because he looked like this sad puppy playing solitaire. It brightens up my day when I could put a smile on someone’s face.
Today was a music session, this lady brought in all types of musical instruments that we can play with. I saw a guitar and piano – I was excited. I didn’t want to play because I don’t remember enough to play in front of people. We got to choose music to play from get the phone instead and explain why we chose it. This was one exercise I didn’t want to participate in. I just wanted to listen and learn. Hear people’s point of view and I would say my two cents on what it means to me. I would say next to the yoga class we had this was memorable.
I was able to stay for Dinner and interact with the group long before I had to go back.
I called my mom – like any other day to give her an update. She told me she was planning to drive into town so I can have someone here. I was excited to hear and really happy to hear this.
She has been very helpful and handling all business life, by talking to my boss and checking on my house through the cameras. She has been mentally motivating me to get through this every step of the way. I know I didn’t tell her everything because I didn’t want her to worry but she was going to do that anyway. That I couldn’t imagine
I don’t want her to ever feel like she failed as a mother or it’s her fault I’m in here. I’m not mad at you, I love you and you are my Super Woman and never forget it.
I have issues and so does everyone else in the world, this is what makes me human. This experience has opened my eyes to reality and made me grateful for things that I couldn’t imagine, like sitting on my porch or even the feeling of working out.
Without you mom, I know I wouldn’t be who I am today. I couldn’t imagine being able to raise kids since I don’t have any of my own but
I am grateful
I am appreciative
I am thankful
Please don’t beat yourself up or think you are a failure. You are not! I owe you any & everything.
That simple 5-10 minute phone calls are valuable like our 5-6 hour conversations.
Well once our phone conversation came to an end, I was sent back to my section
– a fun time is over. I talked to the man in charge and asked will there be an opportunity for me to move to a different section or back to my original one. He told me he will work on it and let me know.
A few hours went by, after hearing all the drama from the nurses – something I would hear on the regular but I wasn’t complaining just listening like it was a sitcom. The manager came to me and said they have a new room for me downstairs, he was going to move me tomorrow morning. Jumping up and down in my sides – on the inside of course.
Went right to bed hoping for a new environment- just crossing my fingers it’s not the floor with the bad adults that fight all the time.
Said my prayer and laid my head down closing my eyes waiting for the nurse to wake me up out my sleep again.
Always having this thought in the back of my head like what if I don’t get out of this building and I stay as long as some of the patients for years. What if I belong here since I’m getting too comfortable.
Don’t think negative Eliza, please don’t
Meaning Behind Your Smile 