Chapter 1: Twisted Bang

I hate going to work but that’s just a normal day. They call me Eliza, and I want to take you on a trip 1 year from now. Some may remember some might not but it’s ok. This is just one Occasion, if you can’t handle it it’s OK trust me there will be happy moments soon!

It was a Friday, I just went to work and finish my usual workflow. Smiling as usual, but you will notice in these stories I do this a lot. I tend to hide my thoughts and feelings because I don’t want to be treated differently or ruin someone else day with my issues. Love to see a smile on people faces.

So I had this one event in my Calendar for a while and it had to deal with Painting & Guns with my friends. Something that could place a smile on my face or cheer myself up from the months of sadness and anger.

I meet one of my friends and we went shooting before the trainer came in and taught us the basics. I wanted her to feel comfortable with a gun and maybe have more 1 on 1 experience before the teacher gets the group. I really enjoyed myself I don’t know about them.

Smile Eliza Smile

Then we went to paint, art is my favorite subject next to gym and snack or nap time. 🙂

Seeing the creativity that comes out is an amazing experience. But I don’t think they knew that I rather be the target than the one in front of it. But I tried to use me teaching and hearing the laughter from my friends a way to calm my anxiety and emotions.

Smile Eliza Smile

• I don’t feel appreciated at work
• I feel over worked without any compensation
• Can’t trust anyone there
• Didn’t Grieve from a close death
• Went through a break up
• Emotionally broke down and thought my life was ending

Just picture holding the gun and then building up pressure from your chest, hands sweating because you don’t think you can hold the gun steady, head sweating. I knew I wasn’t in a comfortable environment and I had to relax

Smile Eliza Smile

Photo time – trust me I did enjoy myself don’t get me wrong but I hate when my mind wonders and take control of me internally. Let me take this picture and act normal and SMILE. I was looking cute I think I deserve to be happy and enjoy myself, even though I didn’t feel like myself.

Smile Eliza Smile

“Thank you for the invite, I had a great time”

“You are welcome, you having a great time is all that matters”

Now that my friends made my day I feel accomplished I touched someone today!

Now let me stay calm and make it home safe, don’t look at the tree that can possible take the pain away

You have to touch someone else tomorrow!

~Good Night Eliza